The idea of this week is "I only see the past." This was an interesting concept to hold in mind, as this awareness seems to aid much of the anger and resentment we may accumulate through life. Here is an excerpt from the text:
"This idea is particularly difficult to believe at first. Yet it is the rationale for all of the preceding ones.
It is the reason why nothing that you see means anything.
It is the reason why you have given everything you see all the meaning that it has for you.
It is the reason why you do not understand anything you see.
It is the reason why your thoughts do not mean anything, and why they are like the things you see.
It is the reason why you are never upset for the reason you think.
It is the reason why you are upset because you see something that is not there."
This makes sense, and seems to sum up the previous 6 lessons as well. Seemingly it is the reason as to why nothing means anything, or why I don't understand all that I see. Also the reason for why I'm upset in certain situations. But of course, I don't take this at face value, but will adopt it once it makes sense in my life.
Fortunately for me I have not experienced much discord at all with this material, and it has been a very easy integration process. These concepts are not FULLY integrated however, but I do keep them in mind. This blog is part of my integration process, as repetition will help me recall these concepts that much more.
The best way I can relate to this week's lesson is by using my friend as an example yet again. This friend of 20 years, who "disappointed" me on my birthday did not do so out of malice, or contempt. I know this. And my only real reason for being upset with him is by seeing him only in the light of the past, instead of seeing him for all that he is in this moment of now.
My past associations with him, ie. 20 years of fairly regular birthday gifts, comes rushing to the forefront at the moment he breaks my expectation. My expectation of others is something I've worked on for years, and little by little, I remove these bonds of expectations from others, yet some still remain in key situations. So seeing the past when looking at him makes perfect sense... and it is only by seeing the past do my expectations manifest, and thus I set myself up for disappointment.
Essentially that kind of thought process lets the illusion control my emotional state, instead of just deciding to be happy regardless - and taking my power back from the illusion. I know which path is the correct one, but walking it consciously is not always that easy.
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